intimidated

This week is my first 18miler of my training and I have to admit that I'm feeling somewhat intimidated. I know that I can do 15 because I've done it twice this month already, so I'm planning on concentrating on that and then pushing thru the last 3 whatever it takes (even if I have to walk). Its not the distance that is scaring me, but the heat. It seems like everyone is going to be gone this weekend so I'll have all day saturday to mentally prepare myself, relax, find my happy spot. I know its weird, but my head has to really be into it to do a long run. If I'm to emotional or distracted or if anything happens the day before that I didn't plan for, I'm almost useless. Hopefully one day I'll be strong enough to just do it without so much effort going into it! The numbers are weird with me too...8 is harder than 10, 12 harder than 15, 18 harder than 20...it doesn't make sense, but for some reason it works out that way in my head. If I skip the 18 I'll probably injure myself, but 20 sounds a lot better right now. Have fun in Napa! Love, Lindsey